This review is also on my blog: Istyria book blogWow. Oh my god. This book is just... I just don't have any words to be honest. I'm not afraid of death anymore. I'm afraid of everything else.This book is about Natsya and Josh. To say they're a bit damaged, would be an understatement. They're down right fucked up. Sounds not to original, does it? But it is. We know why Josh is damaged pretty fast and there's even a hint of it in the blurb, but we don't really know what wrong with Natsya. Usually we know what's going on with the main character, but in this book we don't. We find out along with Josh and Drew and the other characters. I really liked that. It made me curious and I could not put this book down at all. The writing is great, not short of brilliant. Not many authors can write half a book about the day to day life of two teenagers without it getting very very boring. Katja can. In this book it really never got boring. It was so fascinating to read. The characters, the dialogue, ... Even tough Natsya doesn't speak in the beginning, her inner dialogue is awesome. It was really nice to see the relationship between her and Josh build up. It seemed right. And then we finally knew what happened and my heart broke. (Reading isn't good for my heart lately... It breaks all the time. Should go to the doctor and let him check it out...) I couldn't breath, I was speechless. And after breaking, my heart just stopped for a second. Daylight won't protect you from anything. Bad things happen all the time; they don't wait until after dinner.I loved Natsya and Josh and Drew and all the other characters. I really do and I'll remember them for a long time and one day, when my heart can take it, I'll read their story again. I knew this book would drain me emotionally when I started. I just got the feeling it would be and I was right. For now this is all I can say about this book. But I know one thing for sure. I never had a quote from a book that really related to me and now I do. I live in a world without magic or miracles. A place where there are no clairvoyants or shapeshifters, no angels or superhuman boys to save you. A place where people die and music disintegrates and things suck. I am pressed so hard against the earth by the weight of reality that some days I wonder how I am still able to lift my feet to walk.